Done dammit done dammit done done done!
Dec. 19th, 2003 04:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rushthatspeaksAm giving self three days off before plunging headlong into grad school applications despite deep, nagging Sense of Doom which is only allayed by working on said applications or forgetting their existence altogether. Am now too close to deadlines to forget existence. Am hating being dependent on Registrar and professors to get in Huge, Significant chunks of apps.
I am applying to Boston University and Boston College in Classics Ph.D programs only; B.C. is my safety school, really. Neither of these would be ideal but I think either would be tolerable. I am applying to Harvard in both the Classical Philology and History of Art and Architecture Ph.D programs concurrently. According to how things seem to work around there, I have the option of being admitted to none, either, or both. I'm doubtful of the Classics department letting me in by itself as they really, really, really want Latin. I think there's a real shot at the History of Architecture people letting me in (maybe)(really maybe), and there's a really weird, off-the-wall shot at both letting me in at once if they compare notes and like me (the person I am getting to try to make them compare notes is my boss from last summer, who may have some pull). If I get into both at once, I have the options of dropping one or designing a combined program (see the big flashing arrows pointing toward that last option? Big. Flashing. Neon. Singing the Hallelujah Chorus).
Of course, my grades are on the low side for admission and I'm not too sure about my recs or if they'll get there in time and my GRE scores were, y'know, fine, Ruth says very good indeed but I can't stop twitching and who knows how much pull my former boss has anyway and it is entirely possible that the fact that I fall between departments just means neither one will think I'm qualified for anything and dammitalltoheck I want to go to Harvard and I still have essays and forms and paperwork to do in *duplicate* and then there is the whole huge complicatedness of, Sweet Mother of the Moon, having to try to get funding.
If I don't get into Harvard and don't get in anywhere else, a state of existence becoming quite familiar to me from anxiety dreams which insist that I would really make an excellent waitress, no, really (they lie spectacularly), I move to Boston, take a lot of postbac languages and find a research project to work on with some prof or travel and try again in a year. If I get into BU or BC but not Harvard, I decide whether to take the Ph.D program and try to transfer, which I'm told is easier than applying outright, or bump it down to a master's, which shouldn't be difficult, and try for Harvard for the Ph.D again after I've got that. If I get into Harvard but not either BU or BC I *laugh until I fucking hurt myself*, frankly.
This sounds to me like a plan.
Must not think about this again for at least three days. I think I am going to reread The Hobbit.
I am applying to Boston University and Boston College in Classics Ph.D programs only; B.C. is my safety school, really. Neither of these would be ideal but I think either would be tolerable. I am applying to Harvard in both the Classical Philology and History of Art and Architecture Ph.D programs concurrently. According to how things seem to work around there, I have the option of being admitted to none, either, or both. I'm doubtful of the Classics department letting me in by itself as they really, really, really want Latin. I think there's a real shot at the History of Architecture people letting me in (maybe)(really maybe), and there's a really weird, off-the-wall shot at both letting me in at once if they compare notes and like me (the person I am getting to try to make them compare notes is my boss from last summer, who may have some pull). If I get into both at once, I have the options of dropping one or designing a combined program (see the big flashing arrows pointing toward that last option? Big. Flashing. Neon. Singing the Hallelujah Chorus).
Of course, my grades are on the low side for admission and I'm not too sure about my recs or if they'll get there in time and my GRE scores were, y'know, fine, Ruth says very good indeed but I can't stop twitching and who knows how much pull my former boss has anyway and it is entirely possible that the fact that I fall between departments just means neither one will think I'm qualified for anything and dammitalltoheck I want to go to Harvard and I still have essays and forms and paperwork to do in *duplicate* and then there is the whole huge complicatedness of, Sweet Mother of the Moon, having to try to get funding.
If I don't get into Harvard and don't get in anywhere else, a state of existence becoming quite familiar to me from anxiety dreams which insist that I would really make an excellent waitress, no, really (they lie spectacularly), I move to Boston, take a lot of postbac languages and find a research project to work on with some prof or travel and try again in a year. If I get into BU or BC but not Harvard, I decide whether to take the Ph.D program and try to transfer, which I'm told is easier than applying outright, or bump it down to a master's, which shouldn't be difficult, and try for Harvard for the Ph.D again after I've got that. If I get into Harvard but not either BU or BC I *laugh until I fucking hurt myself*, frankly.
This sounds to me like a plan.
Must not think about this again for at least three days. I think I am going to reread The Hobbit.
