update

[rushthatspeaks]

Why have I not been posting here? Because it's been a frankly lousy couple of months, and I haven't had the time or inclination to talk about it.

Honestly, I still don't. Nobody's dead, in danger of dying, direly ill, divorced, or fleeing the country, so there's that, and that's all I have to say in favor of the last while.

I'm in an outpatient-via-Zoom partial hospitalization program because my dysphoria has gotten absolutely uncopeably bad, and I had the appointment yesterday morning to get me onto testosterone for HRT.

That's not everything by a mile, but it's the least difficult, if that tells you something, because honestly it was HRT or wind up in an inpatient program.

I am reading other people's journals and keeping up as best I can.

No idea when things will ease up here, but at least at the moment they are a somewhat differing flavor of extremely difficult than they have been, and with potential to get better.

Comments

[sovay]

Love, my husband.

[rachelmanija]

I hope the T is helpful!

[nineweaving]

*hugs*

Nine

[thistleingrey]

I hear you.

[rydra_wong]

I'm sorry things are so rough, and very glad they have the potential to get better.

[shewhomust]

Thank you for posting. I'm sorry things aren't better for you, and glad that they may become so.

[kaberett]

I bear witness. <3

[kate_nepveu]

Hugs and support.

[skygiants]

Thanks for the update; I'm sorry things have been so rough, and I'm glad for the glimmer of light toward an upward turn.

[oracne]

I hope the upturn happens soon!

[jesse_the_k]

Sending strength and light

[gwynnega]

I hope things get better soon.

[kore]

Severe gender and body dysphoria is one of the worst things. I'm really glad you are getting help and sorry you are hurting this much.

[thomasyan]

I'm very sorry to hear that. I hope the potential for improvement is swiftly realized.

[thesebonesaregood]

I send warmth and kind thoughts to you. I hope the dysphoria backs off with HRT and I hope you can find some peace in the coming days.

[ckd]

Thinking of you and wishing you well.

[ladymondegreen]

So glad you're still here. May you get everything from T that you've needed.

[larryhammer]

Sorry to hear living is so rough. May existence improve. Holding you in the Light.

[gaudior]

<3

[lokifan]

I'm sorry. I hope things get easier soon, and the T helps.